2019: THE YEAR OF ICE, TREADMILLS, AND SELF IMPROVEMENT
A new year full of hope, possibility, goals, and less than ideal running conditions has begun!
While my first day of 2019 didn’t include any running or working out, it did include tackling one of my 19 goals for the new year. Read More. Such a simple, vague, and easy to accomplish goal. Except, when you haven’t read for “fun” in more than 6 months and have to decide exactly what genre of books you are into now at the ripe old age of 22 (nearly 23) years old. Since about half of my goals for 2019 were focused in the area of self improvement, I decided that would be the best type of book to look into reading. Obviously, I had to choose the most popular, out there, highly relevant to my life “self help” book. I couldn’t just pick some random book that I had never heard of before, that would be far too risky.
Anyhow, I picked a book that was super popular a few years ago in my sociology of self improvement class in college. It is by Jen Sincero and is entitled, “You are a Badass: How to stop doubting your greatness and Start living an awesome life.” A pretty lengthy title for a book that is just 207 pages. I started the book on January 1st, and read something like 30 or 40 pages that first night. Though this isn’t my a book I would typically read for fun/enjoyment, I found myself not wanting to put it down. Just 4 chapters into the book, I already felt like I had learned so much and would have surely finished the book right then and there if I didn’t have to wake up the following morning at 4:15 a.m. to get my first workout of the new year in.
I could not have started this book at a better time, because so far, running/working out in 2019 has been a bit challenging.
Granted, working out and running is a form of self improvement, take a lot of effort/dedication/etc; so it’s bound to be challenging. That’s sort of the whole point. You challenge yourself, and in the process, change your body, health, and all that jazz. However, there is just something about the treadmill that makes running too challenging. Maybe it’s the staying in one place, staring out the window, thing. Or, maybe it’s the fact that the treadmill has a way of playing tricks on your mind and making you doubt your running abilities. This week, this year, it’s that the treadmill is defective (at least for me when I’m running) and I am not the most patient person in the world at 5 a.m.
After having to start/stop twice yesterday morning, I thankfully was able to switch treadmills, and finish the last 4.38 miles of my 5 mile run without issue. Heck, I even used my annoyance and frustration with the treadmill to my advantage. I pushed myself to run 3 of my 5 miles at 9:22 pace, and refused to quit or slow my pace when things got super hard, boring, or felt generally impossible. Even post run, I still was upset because a. I felt I could have ran faster and b. I so would have rather been outside running. Soooo, I decided destroying my entire lower body with an intense, high volume leg day was an absolute must. It’s like, no matter what life was going to throw at me, I was bound and determined to make the most of it.
At the end of the day yesterday, I just did not have the energy of motivation to get in any reading.
Like, it sounded like the greatest idea in the world, but I just could not bring myself to sit down and do it. Which, looking back now, I really wish I had…because today’s run was a whole lot more challenging that I anticipated it would be. I had a game plan: run 3 miles on the treadmill at whatever pace I could manage, embrace treadmill running, and just be happy to physically be able to run pain free. Welp, I sorta had to throw the majority of that plan out the window. The treadmill just was not a fan of me today (again) and after having to restart twice, I decided to take things to the ice covered pavement and sidewalks.
What followed, was a lot of slow running and being super pissed off about the very existence of treadmills. Oh, and having to deviate from my normal running route and feeling super off not running with my pepper spray. When I finally made it 3 miles, the last thing I wanted to do was see just how slow my time was. But, I HAD to look because this is only the 2nd run of 2019….and these first several runs are going to set the tone for the whole first month and more than likely the rest of the year. And surprise, surprise, I was incredibly disappointed by my time and pace. The one bright spot I was able to take away from the run, was that I made it the entire 3 miles without falling or sliding a whole lot.
And now, I’m completely over treadmills. However, I’m not stressing over these first two runs of the year. Instead, I’m focusing on tomorrow’s 6 miler and how much fun it’s going to be. I’m crossing my fingers that all the ice is magically melted away and all the cute dogs are out tomorrow morning. Because, 2019 is all about long runs in the great outdoors and seeing as many cute dogs as possible!