HITTING THE BRAKES
It's been long, LONG overdo. I have been struggling with hip pain and some shit pain ever since I had that outdoor run on the 16th. Like I was completely fine for the whole 6 miles, and then when I went to run two days later I was in pain. I tried taking last Tuesday off from running, hoping that that one day would fix the problem. Looking back, that was kind of stupid...because one day off from running isn't going to do a whole lot. So, here we are again a week later trying to take off multiple days in a row from running.
Originally, I was planning to take off most of this week if Sunday's run didn't go very well. And yeah I was in pain for my 3 miler than day...put not like terrible have to run super slow pain. The pain was very much tolerable. So, yesterday I decided to push for 4 miles and it was the worst! I knew from the get go that things were going to be just down right awful. I set the speed at 6.2 (which for me is like really slow, and on a normal day I would only run that pace for the first 1/2 mile) and trudged on.
I can remember hitting the 2 miles mark and thinking to myself, "I really don't know if I can last for a whole 2 more miles." My legs were fighting me the entire way, but funny enough, my mind was in it to win it. I had gotten a letter from my best friend who is in Army bootcamp Saturday and then also gotten some texts from her on Sunday. So, when mentally thinking about everything she had written me in that letter is what got me to push past the pain and run for 4 miles. Without that motivation and inspiration to drive me, I think I would have quit after just a mile or two.
When I got out of bed this morning, I did my normal stretching and foam rolling that I do before every run. I was totally planning on running a faster 3 miles today before my low weight/high rep leg day. It didn't take more than a few minutes of me walking down my dorm hallway for me to realized just how jacked up my hips are. Like just walking hurt and if you saw me walking the halls at that time of morning the way I was walking you would probably think that I was half asleep or drunk. So, at that point I said to myself, "Maybe it's time to take some time off from running for real this time."
That maybe quickly turned into an absolutely YES when I hit the stairs that would take me from my room on the second floor down to the front desk. It was a struggle getting down those stairs and all I could think was how the heck am I gonna make it down the rest of the stairs to the dang fitness center?! Well, I made it down there and I was of course none to happy that I would be walking this morning instead of running. However, walking at 4.0 mph proved to be just challenging and painful enough for my hips.
And 30 minutes later I was drenched in sweat and feeling a whole lot better about my decision to take a short break from running. I know that I need my hips/legs to be at 100% when I head home from spring break in a little over a week and am finally able to get in some long runs outside. So, taking a few days off this week suddenly doesn't seem like that big of a deal. The true test will be, whether I can actually stick to this decision come tomorrow and Thursday morning when my mind is begging me to at least try to run at a super slow pace for just a few miles.
Aside from me hitting the brakes for the time being, I realize now that I am gonna have to hit the brakes as well for those first few long runs outside. I am not in the same running shape now that I was back in December when I was running outside on a weekly basis and hitting 10k PRs every other run. I haven't ran over 6 miles in what feel like forever. I am going to have to seriously adjust me expectations for what running "fast" and "long" feels and looks like for me right now. Moreover, I am gonna have to listen to my body and not push too hard too soon.
I definitely have my work cut out for me during these next several weeks of running. As much as I want to sit here and say I will take for sure wait until Friday to try to run and if I'm in pain wait again until the following week...I don't know for sure that that will be the case. I need running in my life much the same way people need their morning cup of coffee or their 8 hours of sleep. I'm not me without running, and I can't help but feel like I'm slacking when I'm walking at 4:45 a.m. instead of busting my butt running.