SELF-CARE SUNDAY // BEING MORE PRESENT
So, far November has been busy. Not super fitness focused. Or a whole lot of time to just sit and think. And, of course, blog.
Last week, the week of Halloween/start of November, I only worked out three times the entire week. Three runs. Two lifts. Nothing super inspiring or motivating to report. So, I knew this week I NEEDED things to be different. I wasn’t going to be any busier with work OR want to get up when my alarm went off at 3:45 a.m. So, I decided to just take every day, every lift, every run as it came. I knew I wanted to get in five runs and three lifts. The only real plan I has was to have one early morning lift and work my way back up to a long run of five miles. That’s it.
There were no goal paces, goal weights, strict menus, or, “I’m going to get up at this time and run this distance NO MATTER WHAT.” Because, I’ve done that before. In the long run, it doesn’t last and every single time you fall short, you end up feeling worse about yourself (and your lack of discipline). For once, I was able to get it all tackled. I got in the extra sleep/recovery that I need six days out of the week. I had a ton of great runs, and was finally able to get in the gym to lift three times in one week!
Yet, in the back of my mind I still found myself struggling at times.
Struggling to be okay with sleeping in on the weekend, setting aside several hours on these days for fitness, and not getting in all the extra hours work-wise that were available to me. Then, I realized something. I needed a weekend full of fitness, relaxation, good food, no stress, and getting to spend time with my favorite people. Working away my entire weekend wouldn’t have allowed for most of this. Sure I would have ended up with a bigger paycheck. But, I would have been miserable all weekend, and it wouldn’t have been great for my mental health.
On today’s run, and several others this week, I focused on being more present. Which, ended up with me running some really stellar times and wanting to be more present in other aspects of my life as well. I found that when I was more present, I got more joy out of running. It felt easier, more freeing. When I was spending time with the people I cared about, I made sure to not even glance at my watch. Because, I have such a bad habit of doing this, and dreading the moment when I’d have to say goodbye (even after 4 hours!!)
Being present and focusing on self-care was just what I needed today. It allowed me to thrive during my five mile run, despite the windy and chilly weather conditions. It allowed me to not be super overwhelmed by just how busy the gym happened to be at 9 am on a Sunday. I just took a deep breath, and promised myself that I was going to make the most of my lift. I mean, after such a good run, you can’t just decide to skip or half-ass your lift…right?!?
This week, I ran 17.13 miles. Which, in all honesty, isn’t that impressive.
At least, coming from the person who has in the past routinely ran 30-35 miles a week on a pretty consistent basis. And, even ran 49 (or 50 can’t really remember) miles in one week. But, it’s better than last week. Better than I have been doing lately. It’s a step in the right direction. It gives me hope that switching over to mostly treadmill running in the winter won’t ruin my progress and momentum. I will hate it. And complain about it. But, at least I’ll be warm and won’t have to worry about slipping and falling on the icy/snowy sidewalks and roadways.
If you take nothing else from this post, keep this in mind: self-care isn’t selfish. And focusing on being present/living in the moment will completely change your attitude and enjoyment/appreciation of everything and everyone in your life. Live in the moment. Don’t be afraid to wing your workout/eating routine. It can be stressful at first, but over time it’s actually quite freeing.