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IS IT WORTH IT?

IS IT WORTH IT?

   Is it worth it? That's what I was thinking like 2 miles into this mornings run. I was so driving the freaking struggled bus and sore as all get out after Friday's impromptu outside run. Running all the same hills twice plus adding in those few extra hills during that last mile or so finally caught up to me. My left calf was burning up and my left ankle felt all sorts of messed up because of this big ass blister on my heel that just will not go away. So, I asked myself, "Why push to run 6 miles today? Why not just be smart and stop at 3? Play it safe." I knew I had a 90 minute heavy leg day coming, so was it really worth it to push through the pain just to run some arbitrary distance?

    It was at around mile 4, after I had fought and fought against the voice in my head telling me that it was definitely not worth to endure the pain any longer and that no one would know or even care that I had called it quits a few miles early, that I finally realized that it was worth it...every bit of pain, every ounce of sweat, and every singe of pain that flared up. It was worth it because running is my life. My passion. My therapy. My escape from all the stress and crazyness of everyday life. Without running, without really pushing myself to my limits each and every run...what am I accomplishing? What goal am I moving towards if not the goal of getting physically and mentally stronger?!

    Sure, I'm not a huge fan of pain, but I know it's necessary to get to where I want to be physically and running shape wise. And, I know it's corny but bear with me, it is only temporary. Once I got done running and completed my 30 minutes of incline walking I felt fine enough to bust out a pretty great leg workout. I had some discomfort during certain exercises, like calf raises and squats, but I didn't let that hold me back. And in the end, no one really gives a shit about how you ran or performed in the gym on your perfect/ideal days. Where all the conditions were perfect, you had zero muscle soreness and all the motivation in the world. Because, it's easy to show up and give 110% on those days. What people wanna hear about and are impressed by, is how well you perform and hold up mentally during adversity.

    That's the stuff role models and inspirations and self-help gurus are made of. And, although I like to tell myself that there aren't people out there (on the Internet or in real life) that look up to me as a role model or source of inspiration...I know that there probably are a handful of people who do from time to time. And those are the people who essentially make it worth it. Yeah, I'm doing this whole fitness/running thing for myself, but let's be real for a second, I'm also doing it because I know there are people who expect it from me. Who expect me to never settle for giving anything less than my best effort in every challenge I endeavor.

    I can deal with the early mornings, routine acne breakouts, rest days, foam rolling, and sore muscles. What I can't deal with, is giving up. Quitting when I know I have more in me. More miles. More reps. More strength. 

Side note: Do not, I repeat DO NOT. Pull a Caitlyn and use your rest day as an excuse to avoid stretching, foam rolling, and/or icing your legs (and whole body for that matter)! I believe that is like 90% of the reason behind my issues running this morning.
MY HIP(S) DON'T LIE

MY HIP(S) DON'T LIE

I NEEDED THAT

I NEEDED THAT