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FIVE MILE FRIDAY

FIVE MILE FRIDAY

    Sometimes running on the treadmill before 5 a.m. is the worst time of your life and a complete suckfest. Sometimes it's not that bad and you're able to get through your long run by just taking things one mile at a time. Today was one of those days, and words cannot even begin to describe how accomplished I felt at the end of my run. Like sure it was super slow and my left hip feels kinda iffy now...but damn I actually did it...my first long run since November 27th. I was ready to stop at mile 3, but I told myself that if I just made it another mile then technically I could count it as a long run and I would be running farther than I had on those dang dungeon treadmills in what feels like forever. Then, when I got to mile 4...I was like, "Well I don't feel that bad, so might as well push for five miles." And obviously I was thinking that 'Five Mile Friday' sounded a lot cooler than 'Four Mile Friday' for the title of this post...So here we are.

    To be honest, I was struggling before mile 3...not physically, but mentally for sure. And I was literally making every single excuse I could think of for stopping when I hit the 2 mile mark. Working out fasted is hard. Running on a shitty treadmill in an empty gym is hard. My legs just aren't ready for running long yet (especially in the dungeon). I have a shit ton of intrinsic motivation, but like zero extrinsic motivation in this particular environment. Thankfully, I was able to push all of these illegitimate excuses out of my head. And I think the fact that I have been listening to the 'Run Selfie Repeat' podcasts my Kelly Roberts has a lot to with the fact that I was finally able to really push myself and somewhat enjoy the process.

    A few episodes from that podcast that stick out to me as being particularly helpful are the "Power of Visualization" and "Drop Kick Your Fear of Failure in the Face." Not being able to run outside and really get lost in the pure joy that comes from running 6-8 miles at a crack certainly isn't ideal for someone who has the big, huge, scary goal of running 13.1 freaking miles this summer. Or for someone who thrives on the extrinsic/external motivation that comes from running outside or even inside on the right treadmill in the ideal gym. But, that podcast episode really got me motivated and excited for today's long run. I was like, "F*ck yeah. I'm ready to dominate this run." I also made sure to really focus on pretending that I was just running one of my favorite parts on my usual route over and over again. It sounds boring, but it was such a big help in making the 5 miles feel bearable on the dreadmill. And it doesn't hurt that when I put my Ipod on shuffle this morning, it played some super motivating songs...like songs that I am so familiar with that I they literally take me back to that one specific, super awkward run and it feels like I am right there again reliving one of the most embarrassing, crazy moments of my whole running career (I know this isn't quite the wording I'm looking for, but you get what I mean!)

    I was also able to draw some inspiration from the podcast on fear. Most days since getting back from Thanksgiving break I have been so scared to really push myself, both pace wise and distance wise. I know it's silly, but I kept thinking that if I pushed too hard, too soon after that disaster of a 47.48 mile running week, I would end up injuring myself and having to take time off from running. Actually, scratch that. That is a completely logical assumption, especially considering how much trouble I have had with my hips when it comes to running. Even today, I found myself wanting to quit early because things were going almost too well and I wasn't in any pain at all and my legs felt super fresh. I spent most of the five miles just waiting for something to start hurting.

    These fears seem pretty trivial when you think about that fact that back home I'm running in the dark and that I run the same exact route everyday. Like, 1. There's a high probability that I could fall/get hit by a car because people aren't expecting someone to be dumb enough/crazy enough to be out running at that time of morning, 2. There are probably a lot of wild animals out there that have rabies or God only know what other diseases, 3. People (whether they know you or not) will stop what they're doing and stare at you as you run past them, 4. I guess if someone really wanted to and their house just happened to be on my route, they could jump out and scare me (THIS IS NOT ME GIVING ANY OF YOU PEOPLE IDEAS!!) So, way more shit to be afraid of when you're not running on a treadmill, but that's what makes running outside fun right?!

    Since listening to all of these podcasts recently, and seeing that Kelly is attempting her 3rd crack at qualifying for the Boston marathon (You're got this in the bag girl!!), I feel more than ready to hit some major PRs over break. I will for sure be attempting to increase my longest long run in the history of ever to 9 or 10 miles. EHHHHH. Just typing that is kinds of scary...but...I guess that just mean I'll have to have a shit ton of positive mantra ready and be able to mentally put a different hot guy every few blocks to maker sure I'm not slacking pace wise.

    Sidenote: I know that I said I wasn't going to go crazy overboard again on weekly mileage again because I felt like shit for what felt like forever afterward...but I've really got that itch to run for miles on miles. With that being said, don't be surprised to come back here in a few week to a post titled, "Oops, I did it again", because I can totally see that happening. I can also see myself falling on my face during the worst possible part of my run, and with my luck you can bet it will be in front of someone's house that I know and of course they will just happen to see the whole thing. So, yeah, the upcoming posts (from December 13th on) shall be very interesting. Like, I don't wanna fall or make a complete fool of myself at any point during any run...but there's really no way of preventing that.

    And I bet, that when any dumb/awkward shit goes down on these runs either "Mercy" by Shawn Mendes or "Good Timing" by Jake Owen will be playing. Because, past experiences have shown that these songs always play at the wrong time and place.

 
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