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Giving Yourself Permission//A Work in Progess

Giving Yourself Permission//A Work in Progess

    Any guesses on who just spend over 4 hours at the gym?! Yeah, you probably already know. But in case you didn't..me. I did. And it was a long, tough, painful, self-conscious 4 hours. At the same time, it was extremely productive and empowering. So, basically, it was a typical Friday workout. Could have been better, could have been worse. I guess now would be a good time to address the title of this post. For a good part of the time I spent at the gym I was either thinking about all of the school related stuff that I should/could be working on or being self-conscious AF. And that's with 300mg of caffeine rushing through my veins. For normal people taking pre workout probably keeps you focused on your workout, but that clearly was not the case today. I mean, I felt focused while I was lifting for the most part, but my mind was definitely wandering in between sets and during my rest periods. Anyhow, back to the issue of giving yourself permission.

    It's completely normal to feel like there are other, more productive things you could be doing with 4 hours of your time than working out. At the same time, I know that for me personally, those 4 hours are going to set the tone for the rest of my day and just how productive I am. Self-improvement/Personal development is SO IMPORTANT! And you shouldn't feel guilty for taking time out of your day to focus on that, even if you're not really all that focused and it's ends up taking up a good portion of your morning. Secondly, and this is going to sound so obvious, it's okay to give yourself permission to feel uncomfortable/self-conscious. This is something I constantly find myself struggling with, especially today. And no matter how hard I tried, I could not take the focus off of my imperfections and redirect it to my lifting. And that's okay. No it's not ideal. And yes I definitely tried to overcome it, and failed multiple times. I even told myself that No it's not okay to be self-conscious in the gym and if I really felt the need to be self-conscious I should just go outside and lift by myself. Lol. Because that totally makes sense, right?!

    And it didn't help that I was working out in a tank top in a gym filled with about a million mirrors. But, I got through it, and got in a decent two hour lifting session. I did exercises that I would normally only do if I had an empty gym, and yes I felt like every single person in the gym was staring at me while doing so. And yes it bothered me, duh! Regardless of these feelings, I was able to take a step back towards the end of my workout and realize that just because I'm not a size two or jacked (yet!) I am so much stronger now than I was at the beginning of my fitness journey. I am a constant work in progress. Yes, I have lose skin, stretch marks, and my fair share of other imperfections. That's what makes me human/normal/ME. And that's nothing to be ashamed/embarrassed of.

    So..moral of the story? Everybody. Literally everybody, has things about themselves that they don't like/areas of their life that they want to improve in. Therefore, being self-conscious, (especially in the gym!!) doesn't help in any way, shape, or form, in reaching your goals. Instead, just suck it up and accept that fact that No you're not perfect, or anywhere near where you want to be. And that's fine!! It means you have goals you are working towards. And it is absolutely 100% necessary in the pursuit of these goal that you step outside of your comfort zone. I mean they say that's where life begins, right?

    So here's to getting through the uncomfortable workouts, and doing it with a smile. Oh, and learning not to hit the panic button when you're in the middle of a long run and you either feel like you're running through quick sand, see someone you know, or both! Running outside isn't all it's cracked up to be (Hills on Hills on HILLS), but it sure beats the dreadmill!

    Okay, this post has dragged on long enough, and I feel like it's getting super rambly at this point.

    Next time on Long Runs & Messy Buns:🏃🎃😱💬
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