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"Find the place inside where theres joy, and the joy will burn out the pain." -Joseph Campbell

"Find the place inside where theres joy, and the joy will burn out the pain." -Joseph Campbell

    This quote could not have been more on point in describing these past several days! Once I decided to stop stepping on the scale during my regular monthly time of crazy emotions and instead focused my attention on enjoying the here and now, I found that I was having a lot more fun during my workouts, and my performance has far exceeded my expectations given the ankle injury from Wednesday. That along with watching Criminal Minds nonstop during my free time has really reduced my already pretty low stress levels. I have been eating consistently clean for over two weeks now and I can really tell the difference in how my clothes fit! Yay for the small victories. Now, if only my energy would spike so I didn't have to go to bed by 8:00 or so every night.
    I am excited and I will admit a wee bit nervous to step on the scale tomorrow morning. It's been four days since I last weighed in, so I don't really know what to expect. I don't know how long it takes the bloating from "that time of the month" to subside. Oh well, no since worrying about it now. It will be what it will be, I can always adjust my workout routine if need be. I feel like with the track I am on now I may be able to get up to 5 miles sometime this upcoming week! Saturday would be my preferable day, but I am going to wait and see what my body itself tells me its ready for.
    The magnificent thing about my diet habits now is that, no matter what happens in my life good or bad, I haven't taken to emotional eating since I've been back on campus. I have simply just told myself that doing so would only put me further behind in accomplishing my goals and reaching my dream body, whatever that is anyway. I have decided that I would like to be around 140 pounds by the time I head home for spring break. I feel like this is a very doable goal for me, especially since I don't plan on going home until for break. I feel focused and determined to get myself in the best shape of my life. Through the pain, discipline, and denial of junk food I know that in the end it will all be worth it. I would rather have the body that I want for a lifetime than whatever unhealthy food I want in the moment.
    Another goal of mine this week is to blog whenever I can spare a few moments away from my Netflix time. No matter how long or short the post. Because every thought I get down is just further motivation for myself to keep following the path I am going down. I know that for me, even once I reach my goal weight, my journey will never really be over. Having food and body image issues will be a lifelong battle for me. The most important thing to keep in mind is to 1. not sweat the small stuff and probably most importantly 2. Don't compare your chapter 1 (or any chapter of your own life) to someone else. Biologically, we are all vastly different and there is no logical way to go about telling ourselves that we will in the end be able to shape and mold our bodies to imitate someone else's. It just isn't humanly possible. Instead, we must put in the work, follow a routine, and above all else be patient. Rome wasn't built in a day, and it takes months and years to perfect the body that we each inhabit.
    Well, I can't think of much else to write on tonight. And as always, I never know when the inspiration will strike to post again. However, one thing I don know is that from here on out I plan to create a title for my post using criminal minds quotes. This only seems fitting because so many of their quotes are quite applicable to everyday life. Until next time!
Driving The Struggle Bus/Regrets/XyzWX

Driving The Struggle Bus/Regrets/XyzWX

Worst. Day. Ever. :(

Worst. Day. Ever. :(