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Does the scale hate me?

Does the scale hate me?

    This is a serious question though!!! Lately it feels like the answer is yes.  Seems like the number just keeps inching up, even though I have been working out regularly and eating healthy like 80% of the time. Ugh. Maybe the scale is broken (after all it is just a semi-expensive Wal-Mart scale, and scales aren't always 100% accurate)?  Anyhow, I really don't know what to do at this point.  Do I step on the scale every morning or just not even step on period.  I have gotten to the point where I don't even look in the mirror anymore.  So, uh yeah.  That is where I am at right now in this crazy, messed up journey.  Maybe I need to change up my exercise routine? Or maybe I need to change what I am eating or how often I eat?  Honestly don't even know what to do?
    I have been trying to drink more water and less coffee.  So, maybe that will help things.  I am at a loss for words right now.  The frustration I am feeling right now is just exhausting.  I don't feel super comfortable in my own skin, which to be honest, I probably never have (at least not for an extended period of time).  So, as sit here contemplating going to this chemistry review session, I probably won't go (too cold and dark out), I think about how close I am to reaching my goals.  I need to lose only 3 pounds to get back to my low weight of 136 and I am only about 2% away from attaining my ideal body fat percentage.  I can do this, I just need to stay motivated and positive.
    On a side note, I have been using palmers coconut oil lotion to try and tighten up the loose skin around my stomach.  I have only been using the stuff for like two weeks, but I think it is working.  Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.  I do not know what to do, maybe I should just chill.  That sounds like a better idea, just don't worry about anything for awhile.  Just focus on eating healthy and working out 6 days a week.  I know, that if I put my mind to it, anything is possible.  I may not have my dream body right now, but I am working on it.  But each day I am one step closer to becoming.
    And now, I will just waste time until we can finish working on this group project.  Tonight, I will study chemistry and possibly have a smoothie for supper if I get hungry.  I really have to pee and I want to be back at Currier right now so bad. I just need more water and my bed right now.  On the plus side, my back hasn't really bothered me at all today.  Don't really have any other thoughts, other than focusing on me and my health.  bye
I AM BORED (aka there is probably something productive I should be doing, but I don't feel like it).

I AM BORED (aka there is probably something productive I should be doing, but I don't feel like it).

The Excitement is building...THANKSGIVING BREAK!

The Excitement is building...THANKSGIVING BREAK!